i am finally starting to be inspired and motivated again. i'm out of the haze and that is doing so much for my writing. currrently my goal is to finish up my current fanfics and maybe start one or two new ones. also, for a while you may see some of my fanfiction chapters disappear. i am not deleting them, i am simply deleting each chapter and reuploading each story as one piece to clean up my gallery. so, sorry in advance for the reuploads. writing poetry and prose stuff for me is up and down so it may be slow going to get back in the groove. on a side note, it may be a while before i get any more photos up because my (insert profanity here) brother-in-law decided that it would be fun to mess with my camera. now i have to send it off to be repaired which will cost me $110 that i really don't have. seeing as how i start classes in february though, i really need it, so i don't have much of a choice but to get it fixed asap.

anywho, i guess i've bored you all enough for now.

bye.

i deleted all three parts of my story, "of vampires and werewolves." i've been listening to some lectures on writing and things like that and i realized that a lot of my problem with stories is a lack of character development. so i'm trying something new. i'm working on really developing my characters. now i'm not saying that i'm going to completely scrap the first few chapters or even change them at all, but i wanted to be able to start the story off with a clean slate. i have two characters completely developed (nathaniel and dante) and am working on sire, i'm about half way through with his and i feel that i know them so much better now. i've also decided that, while i'm working on character development for the other characters in my story (i never realized what a large cast i have) i can't just let them set. i have to play with them, so you may see me post small tidbits about their pasts. so far i have at least two memories from dante's past written down, though they are merely fragments of the whole event. i have to work on filling in the gaps.

a few good things have come from this. 1: i'm getting over my writer's block and 2: i'm connecting a lot of things in my head, such as, i never really thought of why sire's name was sire until i really sat down at studied his character and that of his creator seph.

i really hope that this story comes to life for me better than it was before. and if you get into the little tidbits that i post, i would appreciate any feedback you can give me. if you want to know something about the character, ask me. it will help make me think of new details for them.

on a side note, you may have noticed that when i feature artists i tend to shy away from my yaoi and mature content favorites. if you'd like to see me feature them once or twice, let me know. other wise i'm just going to keep it this way.



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things are getting better slowly. i know that it's been some time since i was on here, let alone posting anything. i've been trying to clean house and that means sorting through all my old notebooks and emptying the hard drive on my old computer. i came across a few pieces that really hit home in different ways.



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not really anything new to report, honestly...and do any of you even read this thing anyway?

so, if you watch me you may have noticed i've been posting, and even just on here less in general. i'm not leaving DA, rest assured. i'm just having some confidence issues that i need to work through, as well as this iron tight writer's block. i turn the pictures in from my photoshoot today. i'm nervous as hell. i think their horrible and i worry that my client will not like them. at this point there's not much i can do about it. another ting to note is that at least i know why i have writer's block. and it's the same damn reason i got it the last time. when i was younger i was put on antidepressants for bipolar disorder. i stopped taking them because my mood was blah all the time, that i couldn't write. i couldn't imagine. there were no emotions for me to experience or draw from. i'm experiencing that kind of in-the-middle feeling at this point in time. so rest assured that i have no intention of leaving. just give me some time and i promise i will be back to myself.

thanx for the support.

(ps. sorry no feature, and i'm not putting the clubs up today because i really just don't feel like it)